And the Lightbulb Goes Off

Are you sick of hearing me whine about my lack of direction, about trying to figure out where I should be heading with my blog, etc? Yeah, me too! The good news is, you won’t have to hear about it anymore!

Let me go back in time a bit…

Around the middle of September, a friend invited me to Bible Study at their church on Wednesday mornings. Being a work at home mom, I jumped on the chance to get out and meet other women and give Bubba some time to play with other kids his age. Yes, I’m horrible, but I typically suck at the playdate scene, so he doesn’t get a lot of interaction with kids his own age.

By mid-October, I let life take over and stopped going. Either I was working too late on Wednesday nights to be out of bed and ready to go by 8:15 or I had something pressing to do. I felt like crap. I was a bad friend for wasting her money, I wasn’t paying attention to my spiritual well being and most importantly, I was letting go of my entire reason for blogging to begin with.

After struggling through a few months of deal blogging, I knew it wasn’t for me. It wasn’t my passion. There, I said it! I love saving money just as much as the next guy or girl, but blogging about it quickly became a chore. I felt like I had sold out. Yes, I was making money, but at a huge cost to myself!

Back to this week…

Sunday night, I was cleaning my dining room and I came across my book from our study group. Unlike the other times I had come across my book, this time I felt the desire to be back in group. I felt like I was missing the women I had barely gotten to know last fall. I called my friend and told her to pick me up this morning. You see, after a few weeks of calling and finding out I wasn’t going, she let me know that the invitation was open, but she wasn’t going to keep “pestering” me about it.

So, this morning Bubba and I got up and dressed and headed to the next town over for Bible Study. When we got there, I was filled with a sense of peace and calm. Within five minutes, my mind started racing with blogging ideas. The message was clear.

When I started my blog a year ago, it was because I was filled with the need to share Christ and our church’s prayer challenge to a larger audience. Much like today, I was sitting in church and couldn’t stop thinking about blogging. Unlike today, I didn’t have a blog and really had no desire to start one at that point. Despite my feelings of not wanting to be tied down to a blog, I started a site that night. I felt fulfilled. The ideas were flowing. Life was good.

I’m not saying that my blog is going to be all Christ all the time because I’m a complex, multi-faceted girl, but you’ve been warned, I will be returning to the path I was given. The message this morning was crystal clear. The gift I have been given is a gift from God and it is because of His blessings that I am where I am today. It’s time for me to listen!